Realization

So i was reading all of Ashley's blogs and it amazes me sometimes that i don't realize how much she actually cares about me. I was reading her very first blog entry and i thought about how much we have been through since we met, Probably more than most couples have been through. It almost made me cry. I mean when we met alot of her family didn't care for me because of my religion. They never even gave me a fucking chance. It was a uphill battle for the first 6 months. It just shows how shallow people can be (to include myself). Sometimes i don't really feel like a member of that family. I just don't feel like i fit in! I just know i love my wife and daughter more than anything in the world. I just wish i could show them in more ways than what i do. Most of the time i feel like the only way i can show them that i care is by physical attention. I wish i could be that fun and funny dad but it just seems like i can't get over my damn ego. I also wish that i could show Ashley more emotional love instead of groping her all the time.