England

So i am just sitting here in TLF waiting for Victoria to actually get tired and want to go to sleep. This PCS has been so stressful on me. It makes me wish that i were back in the states already. I thought things would be better overseas but i think i might have spoken to soon. But it could be the same thing now. I could just be judging a book by its cover. I just have never broken down and actually cried from being so stressed and nervous. I just hope things get better really soon. All i have heard is that you never get to see your family because you are gone all the time. Which of course doesn't make my situation better. I just wish that things would go really smooth here. I just can't believe how stupid expensive it is here. I find it sad that people are spending five to eight thousand dollars of their own money because the military doesn't have enough housing for everyone. Not to mention that the houses are tiny. Bedrooms the size of a large closet. I find it hard to believe that a 4 bedroom house over here can be only 1000 square feet. I don't think that you could fit a bed in those rooms because they are so small. That and the shop for the most part has just sent me out on my own trying to find everyting to in-process. It just doesn't seem like they care that much. Not to mention that they are thinking about deploying me the first of the year. Which is only 3 months away. Plus they said it is possible that alot of people might be leaving on Christmas Eve. I honestly don't think that i would be able to handle all of these stresses so quickly and close together. I find it bad enough that i have PCSed four times since i have been in. By the time i git my seven or eight year mark there is a chance that i will PCS five times. I know people who haven't PCSed that many times in 20 years. What are they trying to put me through. I have been thinking about getting out of the military because of all the stresses and i don't want to leave my family anymore. I just don't know what i would do on the outside to provide for my familiy what i can now. But we will see how the next 3 years go maybe i can be pursuaded. Tori just fell asleep so it now my turn to put her in bed and go to sleep myself.